That’s exactly what eating disorder survivor, Kristen Brunello is doing with her Eating Disorder Recovery Speakers podcast—bravely talking about it—and I could not be more grateful.
“Eating disorders grow in the dark,” she says in her June 8th podcast interview, which is so true.
They’re such a lonely, isolating disease. For those who (sadly, just like me) fall down that wretched rabbit hole, they find they spend their days, their nights, their every meal with those two stupid voices in their head telling them to “Eat!” or “Don’t eat!” Had I heard someone like Brunello talking about it so long ago, I would have saved myself years of torture.
Kristen Brunello proclaims herself as an “open book” about her eating disorder, committed to sharing both her own story and the stories of others who have recovered. She shares that her eating disorder got worse when she lived with a roommate in college who was also suffering from an eating disorder, though neither of them believed or admitted it.
As Kristen explains, they seemed to have this unspoken competition about who could eat the least. We all can relate to this on some level. Every single “beautiful” (meaning skinny) image we see on Instagram often instantly ignites in us a feeling not of “Oh how pretty,” but I’m jealous.
We are not our eating disorders. They are something we’re suffering from.
Many people cause their own eating disorder by casually restricting to lose weight. It can start that simply. The more accounts I’ve heard, like Kristen’s, the more I believe this is actually the norm. That eating disorders are not the result of some tragic childhood trauma or other emotional root. Their seed is self-planted by their host with very benign, well-meaning intentions.
Then our brain responds in protest, everything spirals out of control, until the disease has grown beyond our comprehension and we suffer for decades. But, voices like Kristen’s can break this cycle years sooner. She is shining a bright, suffocating light on that monster that lies within so many of us by first calling it exactly what it is—something apart from us. We are not our eating disorders. They are something we’re suffering from. And voices like Kristen’s can end that suffering much sooner.
Kristen’s story was real and relatable and gives me more confidence to continue sharing my own story…
I had no clue there were resources out there like this. Absolutely free. Kristen’s story was real and relatable and gives me more confidence to continue sharing my own story as hearing others’ accounts has been the most eye-opening and healing for me in my own recovery process.
Thank you, Kristen, for sharing your words and wisdom on this topic. I am confident it will help many.